Saturday, October 10, 2009

哪一国

SPM快到了,时间剩不多了
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压力开始侵袭了,睡觉也睡得很不安稳
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结果现在睡觉前,我都会静静的祷告
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希望能赐予我力量一路走下去
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也许是心灵上有了个寄托吧,所以做任何事也都比较有信心了
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我开始怀疑我到底信佛还是信基督
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我相信佛教的真理
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善有善报,恶有恶报
不是不报,时辰未到
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这几句话,妈妈从小和我讲到大,记得牢牢的
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同时我也相信天堂和地狱的存在
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它总是警惕我不要不要做坏事,
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因为种下什么样的因,就会得什么样的果。
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可是同时,我开始向往基督教的信仰
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因为佛教,总让我感觉很严肃,
好像连一点点错,都不容许我们犯
只要相信上帝的存在,
就可以得到他的宽恕和赦免
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虽然不完全相信,却喜欢向神父告解的那一部分
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感觉上,即使是在一个很寂寞的夜晚里
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独自一个人的时候,
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还有一个人,愿意聆听你发牢骚
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无论你告诉他什么,他都不会给你负面的反应
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就像当初,在全部人都骂爱迪生白痴的时候,
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他也是那个不会骂他白痴的人
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搞不清楚我到底是哪一国的,哈哈
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无论如何,我不会放弃我心中的梦想
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有很多很白痴的梦想
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因为有梦,才有去实现梦想的动力
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我要靠自己,努力实现梦想
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Saturday, October 3, 2009

负责

透过一个朋友的部落格,才知道她最近的状况
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原来,她最近过得并不好
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感情的事干扰了她很久,对她造成很大的影响
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以泪洗面是家常便饭
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不过所幸,她终于重新振作,重新站起来了
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我很佩服她的坚强,她的精神
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我的问题啊,和她的相比起来,根本不足以挂齿
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严重说起来,根本就是庸人自扰
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不知多久前,我弟弟回到家说,学校发生地震
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看了新闻之后才知道原来只是余震
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之前是台湾,现在是印尼
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难保有一天会轮到我们马来西亚
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每个人的耐心都有限
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我想 - 我们的地球真的是生气了
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它开始向我们这些人类宣战了
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在这场战争中,我们不可能赢
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问题是,我们究竟还能维持多久?
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如果每个人都懂得为自己说过的,做过的一切负责
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这个世界将比天堂还美
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因为,没有人会因为你不负责任的行为而受伤
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一切随缘,是我目前信奉的人生宗旨 =)
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Wednesday, September 30, 2009

努力,加油!

今天开始,预考的成绩慢慢一张一张地派回来了
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那些我有认真努力温习的,成绩并没有我遇料中好;
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其余我自认没有认真看待的,成绩当然不可能好。
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其实有点难过,
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明明就有在读书,却拿不到自己希望的成绩
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说慢慢来嘛,SPM还有一个月就到了,怎么慢?
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看着我班上的精英逍遥自在的在打牌嬉戏,
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想说他们怎么这么闲?
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分数却张张高过我
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没心情参与他们,独自在旁边对着一堆莫名其妙的数字
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几乎每一个路过我身边的人都会说:
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“ 哇,你怎么那么勤劳?才刚考完试而已喔... ”
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别再说我勤劳了好么?
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眼见自己明明就有做很多很多的练习,
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却拿不到一个相等的成绩
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你所谓的称赞只会让我心理更不平衡,
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责怪自己为什么自己头上的那颗东西和你差那么远...
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(>.<)
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发泄完了,读书的紧张感也回来了
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与其在这里干着急,唉声叹气
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倒不如花多些时间在温习上面
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身边的好多朋友也开始温习功课了,
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我也是时候开始加把劲向前冲了~
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平时很少会认真看待某些事情,谁叫双子座是个名符其实的浪子
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不过SPM对我来说很重要,
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我知道,如果这次,我马马虎虎的过了这关,
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我以后一定会很后悔
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不是每一样事情都可以装傻混过去;
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所谓的不在乎不过是给自己一个逃避的借口
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不是每一样东西都可以得到别人的原谅和包容;
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首先你要先得到自己的原谅
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尝试像个十七岁的人儿
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扛起这个年龄该有的责任
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而不再像个三岁的小孩
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真的就笑一笑,没什么事情大不了
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朋友们,谢谢你们
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你们的鼓励与激励
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你们在课业上的指导
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甚至是你们对我一针见血的批评
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让我真的觉得,大家都在同一条路上,
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朝着同样的目标前进
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希望我不会辜负所有人的好意和期望
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Monday, September 28, 2009

Stop Chasing Drama

Todae finished the Mathematics test
Dunno wats happening to Kang Zi & Sien Hwee there~
Anyway a phone call on yesterday nite made me so happy!!
Guess wat?
JJ Wong Jia Jun rang me up & asked me about Mathematics!
Clapsss plss!
He always score higher thn me in Mathemathics~
Can't guarantee tat I'll score in Mathematics this time,
but at least I'm not a numerical idiot anymore ;)
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Finally finished the drama~ yipee!!
The drama is real nice!
But I dun really enjoyed it as I watched it through youtube and the video is so blurrr...
Thinking of borrowing it from my friend & watch it AGAIN on the TV SCREEN after exam
This is only wat we called enjoy kay?
LOL
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But the drama made me quite sensitive to everything related to PREGNANT
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Stomachache ( delivering baby?! )
big stomach
pregnant
baby
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So if u have stomachache lately, better dun let me know it
I'll immediatly let the whole Form know tat u're pregnant
* sorry, reflex action ;) *
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This is the last drama I'll chase before SPM
Before realising it, SPM is coming nearer and nearer, nearer and nearer.....
* Yish *
Hate it but still, I must face the reality
Still left about a month for me to study
Quite worry now...
I'm still not in the study mood, tats wat freakinn me out now
Thinking of a way how to turn of my PLAYING MODE
& starts off my STUDY MODE
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Still haven't finish my Biology & Sejarah
Gosh, need to STUDY + PRAY more
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Btw, a video to share wif u all
Leave ur comments about it IF u hv. ;)
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Friday, September 25, 2009

Teacher for the Day

Today after Ms. Lee tuition,
Kang Zi & Sien Hwee come to my house & for the first time,
I was playing the role of the people who's teaching, not the one who being taught!
And the subject I'm gonna teach is Mathematics~!
* mwahahaha *
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Wai Shan didn't show up as she claimed tat she had a stomach pain
But according to our experiences,
it's mainly bcz she's LAZY
See, Wai Shan u seriously had a makeover to do about ur image ;)
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Kinda nervous at the beginning
Inspite of doing my revision on Mathematics yesterday,
I spent the whole nite staring at the computer screen & watch
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命中注定我爱你 ( Fated to Love You )
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I closed the curtain of my eyes at about 5.30am & opened it again when it was 7.00am
Brilliant rite? ;)

Nothing much to say as we REALLY study okay??
We started our revision at about 10.30am & it continues untill 5.00pm!!
After the revisions, 3 of us like wanna die ady
Study continuously nothing but Maths for about 4 hours,
come and try larh wei!!
(>.<)
I noe many ppl are goin to say us crazy for wasting so many time on Mathematics
So wat?
Craziee doesn't seems to be a bad thing sometimes ^^
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Today can consider as a revision for me,
hope wat I taught today is really helpful to Kang Zi & Sien Hwee
I noe I can't be considered as a good teacher;
at least I tried my best.
Cheers!
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Time to turn on my STUDY MODE !
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P/S: Any enquiries about my teaching skills, pls proceed to Ms. Kang Zi and Ms. Sien Hwee ;)
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Thursday, September 24, 2009

Dinner by my sista

Today I've been a good gal & stay at home all day long
Just doesn't have the mood to go out~
Dun worry, it's nothing to be done with the Tsunami movie ;)
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Anyway, I found out tat our rabbit is very popular among the CATS
Almost everyday a cat come to our house and sleep together wif the rabbit
* Not including those 18 SX excercies *
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Summore everyday different type of cat
Yesterday is a black white one;
today is an orange one
Since when rabbits and cats can gt along so well??


This cat even STARE at me timm!!
Hey, u're the one who pikat-ing my rabbit kay??
Beware tat I'll get another cat for my rabbit!
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Quite worry about the female rabbit in my house now...
Later if she gt pregnant and a baby was borned....
Will the baby looks like an alien?
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A rabbit body + a long kitty tail
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Gosh, where we're goin to find the baby's father?
If this really happens....
Well, just look at the baby's tail colour & I guess we'll find it ;)
( Talking nonsense here )
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Last time we'd planned to cook a dinner for Old Mother on her bufday
But all the plan changed & the ingredients we bought were left untouched in the refrigerator
So, my sista decided to cook us a dinner with it today
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I dunno how my sista cooked all these
The only thing I noe is tat she scattered all those cheesy scraps on the bakeroni & let them melt in the oven
And it appears as the yellowish thingy as u see in the pic
Quite nice actually
Gotta admit she's a good cook!
Better thn me of course, I dun even noe how to use the oven!!

The cook today with her messy hair
Claps for her plss!!
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Oopss!!
Gonna teach Kang Zi, Sien Hwee & Wai Shan Maths tomorrow
They're coming my house tomorrow & I'm trying my best to TIDY up my room
Quite nervous now!
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P/S: Hope I won't make their grades slip >.<


Wednesday, September 23, 2009

Out Again Wif ROJAK gang

Early in the morning ( about 6.55am)
I was forced to wake up early in the morning just to open my house gate to let Ms. Yin Yee enter my house
She dun hv transport wor~
Even though the time for us to meet up is 8.30am and I woke up at 7am,
yet I'm still late accompanied wif the nagging from Yin Yee
Yea, I'm the winner for the title of LATE QUEEN
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Todae we gt so many ppl --- 15 people!
All mix up ady~
We're getting along smoothly without any discrimination of CLASS, SOCIETY, & AGE
* mwahahaha*
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We planned to watch a movie and after tat sing K
The movie we all wanted to watch is Orphan
But it happened tat we can't watch the movie as the counter girl insist on checking our IC
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1st - I din bring my IC
2nd - All of us were underage
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So, we changed our plan and watched ----
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Tsunami at Haeundae again!!
( and the idea was suggested by me, LOL )
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Surprisingly, we met Sayie & Sook Han there whn we're buying the popcorns
They're watching the same movie wif us at the same time too!
And today appeared to be the birthday of Sook Han~
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Happie Bufday ya Sook Han~
Wish u'll get watever u wan and be happy always =)
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I noe this seems crazy, but YESH!!
I cried again almost throughout the movie
even though I watched this movie for the 2nd time
I just can't bear it when I see those dead bodies floating all over
ESPECIALLY
when my handsome was swallowed by the GIANT WAVES
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Only Jia Ping cried also but ALMOST the end of the movie
All the other ppl were busy laughing at me after the movie ends
Neh, thx to Chim Yoong who sit beside me
Busy promoting tat I cry again EVEN I watched the movie twice
And he was hitten by me dunno how many times in the cinema
!!!!!!
They say the movie was just ok ok only and they can't find any point which deserves their tears!
Fine, I'm still a HUGE fan of Haeundae
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Gonna buy the DVD of this movie!!
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* Forgot to mention tat I met Man Chuan, Jie Yan and Sheue Inn last time whn I go to The Mines with my sista
And we're watching the same movie at the same time in the same hall!!
Feel happiie to meet them again
Miss them so muchi~
and stop calling me kiddy for crying in the cinema!
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My mood was again influenced by the movie & a bit emo....
After lunch, we're separated into 2 gangs :
!st gang --- sing K
2nd gang --- watch another movie & most of them purposely go CA-PE-LING
Get it? ;)
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I choose to go sing K, hoping tat I'll get better from it
Got 7 ppl
Me, Yin Yee, Ah Mok, Jia Ping, Chim Yoong, Yuan Bin, John Kong
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First time sing K for such a long time
We sang from 2pm to 7+pm
Almost 6 hours dude!!
After tat we all almost suffocate ady =x
I thk I'm gonna need the Nin Jom Pei Pa Gou later...
Getting a sore throat soon~
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Ah Mok & John Kong go bek on their own
When 5 of us were heading bek to Kajang,
the slowpoke Yuan Bin arr, made me and Yin Yee stay back behind to wait him use Touch N Go...
At the same time, the train IS there and unfortunately,
we din get into it BUT Chim Yoong & Jia Ping were waving their hands to us --- in the train!!
Gosh, they managed to get into the train bcz they're far away ahead from us
BOO
Won't reply Chim Yoong sms by now, din wait us larh~!
Herrng!!
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* Wanna make an important announcement here *
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Siow Yuan Bin is officially Yeong Sze Ern's wife from today 6.30pm on.
He swear tat he'll " love " me till the end of the world.
And he'll born a whole team of soccer team for me.
Call him " Sze Ern's laopo " the next time u see him.
TQ
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P/S: Still convincing myself my handsome din really die in the tsunami
Still cries a lot when the scene of him waving to his beloved in the waves reflected in my mind.
=x
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Tuesday, September 22, 2009

Crazy & Emo

I noe this seems stupid for all of u
But yes indeed
I cried in my pillows for about 20 minutes bfore I sleep just bcoz of the movie I watched yesterday, Haeundae
When I think of the scene of those ppl die in the disaster and where my handsome choose to sacrifice himself,
my tears flushing down my cheek like a river non-stop
I noe I'm a bit over but really I can't control it....
All the sacrifices they were willing to do just to save their beloved EVEN their life....
The power of love indeed can conquer everything in the world...
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After a long cry,
today I woke up with a pair of red sore eye.
The movie seriously influenced me deeply and I was feeling emo all the day
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If one day disaster DO land on here,
will I willing to sacrifice myself to save the one I love?
My family, my friends, my beloved.....
Am I brave enough to do it?
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If I do, will the person I love do the same thing for me?
Wat is my ranking in their heart?
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I believe tat we've been using too much resources of The Earth
Without the Earth, we're nothing
Not even a speck of dust
Inspite of paying back the debt we've loaned,
we're getting over and over by creating tonnes of pollutions.
Air pollution
Water pollution
Land pollution
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Thinking of further my studies in the field of environment
Yet my mom say I'm stupid as it's gonna be a hard work and I'll hardly earn any money;
My elder sista indeed cares a lot towards me but she's making me feel stupid for choosing this career
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If I choose the way U all chosen for me,
and going through the life u all wanted me for,
safe & steady,
but if one day I was really involved in a disaster which might cost my life for it,
I'm gonna regret my decision earlier....

I dunno whether I'm doing the right decision,
I noe tat they are more experienced and know lots more than me,
I dunno whether I should insist on getting on the way I want to,
I noe tat maybe I'm the one who's making the wrong decision.
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People nvr treasure wat they have until they lose it,
they always paid a lot to realise wat they had is far more than enough
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So do sacrifices.
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Monday, September 21, 2009

A Day Out Wif My Sista


Go to The Mines today wif my sista
Both of us planned to watch a movie and thn jz hanging around the shopping centre
We choose to watch Haeundae , a movie from Korea
This movie is talking about a MEGA TSUNAMI which landed on one of the biggest beach in Korea, Haeundae
How are u going to save the one u love in 10 minutes??
So many ppl were dead in the tsunami!
I hate this movie for making me crying non-stop in the cinema!!
I begun my cry from the 1st symptoms of the tsunami shown till the end of the movie
Cool huh?
I noe I noe~ U guys sure b laughing at me infront of the computer by right now
>.<
( Nvm, my sista cried too! )
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Can u imagine all these ppl were DEAD in ten minutes???
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I was shocked till cry whn the 1st round of tsunami landed
The water was damn high man!!
At least 50 metres!!!
One part it was so painful to me
The water almost covered the lamp post
and that's where the wire breaks off --- wif electricity in it!!
The hero was just in time to cling to a higher place bfore the wire fell into the water
Gosh, u should see how those ppl convulse in the water
So terrifying!!
Within 10 seconds dead bodies were floating all over the " water street "
It scared me off.... >.<
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The 1st pair of Hero & Heroin
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This guy accidentally killed her father in the storm bcz he won't listen to his advice
So he's taking good care of this girl as it was the last request from the man...
The hero almost die in the tsunami
But they were lucky as both of them survived from that disaster...
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The 2nd pair of Hero & Heroin
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This guy is the professor who do researches about earthquakes
He's able to predict about the mega tsunami which is about to land Haeundae
Yet the stupid fella ( mayor of Haeundae ) won't listen to him UNTIL the government of Japan and Korea send out the notice of emergency
but it's too late and they had only less than 10 minutes to retreat 1 million citizens of Haeundae!
He had divorced wif his wife and their daughter was taken by the woman and she was told tat she don't have a father
Yet both of them still love each other
The touching part are
The girl noe about the truth when she was handed to the rescue team and she managed call the guy " FATHER "
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The couple were standing on the roof, confessed tat they still love each other, and hug each other bfore they were swapped away by the waves.....
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The 3rd pair of Hero & Heroin
( My favourite pair!!! )
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This pair was so funny at the bginning
The girl fell into the sea and boy who appears to be at the nearby tried to save her
( He's part of the rescue team)
But the girl struggled too much and forced the boy to pengsan-kan her
The boy later applied CPR on her but in turn the girl kissed him and bit his lip?!!
Mwahahaha, so funny!
They hv feeling to each other slowly but their relationship were ruined by a terrible fella
When tsunami came, the fella and the girl were in a boat and again the boy was there to save them
But after the girl was safe in the helicopter,
a bad news approached tat the helicopter can only bear the weight of one more person only!!
The boy choose to sacrifice himself and let the fella survived
That moment I cry till...........................
T^T
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My handsome
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Photos of all of them
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I bet all of u were thinking me crazy by now
But yes, no doubt
I'm deeply in love wif my handsome now~
♥ ♥ ♥ ♥ ♥ ♥ ♥


Lee Min-Ki
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